been reading emails that i have exchanged with a friend i never would have thought would become a friend. i’ve kept all of them and re-read them whenever i need a reality check. and the honest to god’s truth is that i’ve romaticized someone that was just plain poison to me. i’m glad i kept those emails. i’m glad i have proof that it’s not all in my head, that there really was mostly negativity in the entire affair. it kind of feels good not to feel like i have to worry or care anymore. she has no idea how much she’s helped me, how much she still does every time i read her descriptions, her experience.
i have to wonder though, how much crap comes out of his mouth to any woman that will listen. all the lies. even when i blew holes in them, denial is a crappy state of mind to live in…but deny them, he did.
God, what a fool i was.
thanks A, we seem to be the only ones to know something of the truth because we shared and compared notes. i pity the next one…
enough already
whatcha shopping for?
hey…I know you like plants….I keep a ‘Diablo’ pepper plant on my stove top. (and ‘sweet myrtle’)…..always keep the light above the stove on for the plant.
The Diablo has been with me for about 2 years…and I’ve even made it into a topiary.
It first flowers (light purple) then the pepper appears (deep purple) then the peppers turn deep deep red. This goes on all year. In the summer time I put them outside in the sunshine for a spell.
; )
^5 to a. it’s good to have an objective dissenter.
what happened?..
nix the above…franny….I shouldn’t ask that!!
it’s alright Monstergirl! i’m feeling pretty good today. he’s fading fast.
Ya know, romanticizing someone/something just means that you still have the power to dream and to believe. I did very little along the way for you. When you were ready, you took off the carnival glasses and saw for yourself~
Feel strong, feel proud, and feel lucky.
A.